Thursday, 7 May 2015

I Am NOT Giving Up on My Competition Prep Goals


The past few weeks have been tough for my mindset. Trying this "New" way of training is harder for me that being completely obsessed was! Training in a balanced way that I feel good AND can maintain balance within other parts of my life is refreshing, but very different for me. These feelings of discomfort have honestly caused me to doubt myself. Since I am not stressing about training and getting as ripped as possible no matter what, it makes me question whether or not I will be "ready" when it comes to show time. My ego has been trying to interfere with my inner truth and telling me that I should give up and not compete...

BUT then I realized this is WHY I am doing this in the first place! To show other women that they can enjoy the journey and NOT just stress over the end result. I have to do this to learn what "healthy & fit" really looks and feels like. Of course closer to the show I will cut down on some foods that are incorporated into my diet now and indulge in less cheat meals, because I DO what to look my best for the show day! Who doesn't?!

Allowing my mind to "Let Go" and not feel anxiety or guilt over not having such obsessive control over everything has been difficult, but I'm glad I'm making myself battle those urges and understand what those feelings are telling me.

I WILL Stay strong for not only myself, but for all of the women out there who are looking for that long-lasting lifestyle change. A lifestyle that we don't hate our friends who can eat whatever they want because we LOVE our healthy food. A lifestyle that we workout because it increases our confidence and makes us feel good. A lifestyle that we can indulge in a treat and not go on a binge eating spree or feel guilty about having some chocolate!

For those of you following this journey, I AM COMMITTED. I will step on that stage as a Balanced Bikini Model and be proud of the package I bring to the stage. I don't care if I place 1st or Last, but if I do inspire people and am a positive role model that is a far greater achievement than any title or trophy!

I'm so grateful for those of you who have supported me and believed in me thus far. I will not let you down ;) Much love!


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